All my old poems... written between 2006-2008


"Bye, Bye, Bye"
by Derrick M. Cuomo

Cherry blossoms flow through the wind,
Two figures sitting in the shadows
One turns and whispers
"Bye, bye, bye"

The now lone figure looks at the sky
A tear gliding down his face
Cherry blossoms blowing into the distance
The words echoing in his ears

Rain trickles down on the floor
The lone figure sits under a tree
Cherry blossoms flow down the river
The young man stares into the distance

A reflection appears in the river,
"Bye, Bye, Bye" lingers in the boy’s ears
A cherry blossom makes the water ripple
Leaving the figure alone again

The rain dies down,
Dew sitting on the cherry blossoms
The lone figure walks down the road,
Hearing "bye, bye, bye" in the distance

Another figure stands in the distance,
Cherry blossoms fallen upon him
Whispering a gentle
"There is no time to say good-bye."

Cherry blossoms flow through the wind,
A smile on the two figure’s faces
A ray of sun upon them,
There is no "bye, bye, bye."

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Hate

What is that emotion you feel?
The one that spins like a wheel
Is it love or maybe hate?
I just can’t seem to wait

This thought I can’t shake
Its as deep as the deepest lake
Its you that I see when I wake
My soul is about ready to break

Love or Hate?
What is my fate?
These thoughts I see
I keep them to me

There is not much I can do
But hope my dreams come true
Yet I still seem to wonder
If my life is going under

I hope you don’t feel hate
Because then it’ll be too late
What would I be able to say
When you walk my way?

The thoughts that flood my head
Is holding my soul by a thread
The things I say, think, & do,
I want them to be for you

But yet these bad feelings come to be
When I think that you could hate me
I’m scared of getting that answer
And its killing me like a cancer

Just look at your smiling face
Makes me want to win a race
I want to care for you
I know I really, really do

Happiness floods my heart
But it kills when we’re apart
Does this feeling cross your mind
Is it of the same kind?

Or is it what I fear the most
The one that haunts like a ghost
Is it that feeling of hate
That consumes your character trait

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Heart
By Derrick M. Cuomo

The way you make me feel
It makes me feel so real
Those three words you say
They take my pain away
The love that you show me
It makes me feel so free
The way you touch my heart
Sends my emotions off the chart
I can’t help but to confess
Your love makes me speechless
It’s hard to describe how I feel for you
It’s hard to believe why you do the things you do
No word in existence can describe my joy
It’s better than any single type of toy
My writing doesn’t feel worthy of your eyes
And I’m not telling you any lies
I don’t feel good enough at all,
Without you my world would fall
I can’t seem to emphasize the words
The ones I know you’ve heard
They come straight from my heartflow
But they don’t seem strong enough to show
The true feelings that I feel
The ones that make me feel real
The love that I have for you is true
And you’re in everything I do
Its overwhelming me through and through
I Love YOU

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"Hidden Feelings"
by Derrick M. Cuomo

Why do I get caught in these emotions?
Life is just one big confusion.
And yet I can’t just see,
Why that person means so much to me.

My so-called friends seem to come and go
And who am I to ruin this flow?
How many will remain true,
And how many would rather say "forget you?"

The wanting I feel,
The type that never seems to heal.
None of this seems real,
Why must this wanting be so surreal?

The person I want, I might never get,
But I’m not quite ready to give up yet
I will try as hard as I can,
Until I can hold that person’s hand

No matter what I seem to do
I still can’t seem to find you
I hide my feelings from the world,
That it is you I want to hold.

I’m sure one day I’ll finally tell
And it’ll get me out of this emotional hell.
And so maybe when I look at your face,
I can finally feel your warm embrace.

As I continue to lie down in the breeze
Waiting for that moment I want to seize
That wonderful smile,
Is it really that worth while?

From the dawn of every day,
I hide that thing I just can’t say.
This hidden love that I keep,
Makes me sometimes weep

With this guiding light,
I shall keep up this fight
For Now It Seems,
That I must stick to my dreams


A Passion and Love that I want to set free
A Passion and Love that means so much to me
I wish that person could just see
Of what we can truly be

I want to show that I really care,
But I don’t know if I should share
This truth that I hold in my head
Keeps me awake lying in my bed

The pain I feel shall one day end
As we could one day become more than just friends
This chance I don’t want to miss,
So we can share that one kiss

As I watch you from afar
It makes me wonder who you really are.
Were you sent to keep me strong?
Or are all of my emotions wrong?

I can’t decide what to do
But all of these emotions point to you
I think my life would be really great
If you and me shared the same fate

The words "I love you" don’t mean enough
Because life right now is really rough
But every time I see your smile,
It keeps me going for a while

I live off this hope,
Just so I can cope.
I miss you so much
But do you know that I feel such?

These emotions that I feel
Still seem unreal
I write and write and hope to one day show
What only I really know

If only I could find a way
To tell you one day
And feel that glee
Of Telling you how much you truly mean to me

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Hope

My heart is in pieces
My soul is broken
Crushed by the waves
The waves of sadness
Running through me like an ocean
My mind tumbling down
Down like a bomb
A bomb exploding throughout my very being
Rain falls down upon me
Wiping away all happiness and hope
Leaving only pain and loneliness
Feelings stronger than the mightiest weapon

Terror remains within my soul
Doomed to be ever alone?
Is it Destiny? Or maybe Fate?
This terror that now shows on my face.
I look in the mirror and emptiness is all I can see
Lost in the shadows I seem to be,
No hope for me and no rest at all
I’m ripped apart at the very threads,
Sadness, the only thing going through my head

The night sky pierced by the silver shine
A silver shine made by a moon so full it shines like the sun
A light that goes through the hollow shell
The hollow shell that was once my body
The light giving a radiance, a radiance stronger than the sun
What is it about this light?
This light that makes my empty eyes shine ever so bright?

A feeling that makes me feel free
Free from the dooms of my own Destiny
What is this light that makes me so bright
Bright as a beacon in the night
My pain and sadness start to fade away
A reflection of the moon in my very eye
What is this feeling I feel in me
This feeling that makes me feel ever so free
Even with my life falling apart
And my very being being torn out,
I can’t help but to see this shimmer of hope
A shimmer to brighten up my darkest days
And even though all else has failed,
This new hope will help me prevail.
Even though I am still torn,
My Heart and Soul broken beyond repair...

Is there truly any hope for me?

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"Lost In Transition (Time Stands Still)"
by Derrick M. Cuomo

Time stands still
My mind is running in circles
I am lost in a transition

Nowhere to go
Nowhere to look
Nowhere to hide

Stuck in a world
A world inside myself
A world I can’t escape from

A constant struggle
A struggle of light against dark,
Good against Evil

My mind split down the middle,
Which is real?
Which is fake?

A gentle laugh,
A joyous song
Constantly heard in the distance

A dark cackle,
A deathly tune
Rivals the joyous song

The lights cast a shadow
The shadow seems to fade
A person with no identity

What emotions does it feel?
Happy and glad,
Distress and wrath

A hollow complexion on his face
No life within his eyes
No movement in his body

A puddle ripples next to him
A reflection of a man
His very soul
With bright eyes
Life in his face
A joyous creature

Which one was?
Which one is?
Life or Life taken

A mysterious figure
Clothed in white
Gives a gentle kiss

The doll-like creature falls
Falls into that very puddle
The puddle of his soul

The sun shines down
Shining on the two figures
Both full of life

They kneel there together
Looking into each other’s eyes
All pain swept away

Time stands still
My mind is done running
The transition is over

Your bright eyes staring at me
Into my very soul
Make me rise whole

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My Mind

What is it that goes through my mind?
What is it that haunts me all the time?
A feeling that makes me so lonely,
A feeling that makes me weep so strongly

What is it that makes me so weak?
What is it that makes me so open?
An intrusion that only causes pain
An intrusion that will soon cause death

What is it that makes this feeling so strong?
What is it that makes this feeling live on?
Emotions that run skin deep
Emotions that poison my every cell

What is it that won’t let me fight back? What is it that won’t let me live right?
A life that cannot go on
A life that is not really strong

What is it that makes me doubt myself?
What is it that makes me doubt my heart?
A soul torn by abuse and fear
A soul that might not ever heal.

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Pain
By Derrick M. Cuomo

No words can describe the pain,
The grief in my heart,
That now haunts me like a ghost
All my current happiness,
Shot to the fiery pits of hell
A brief memory of you in my head
It forces me to fight the tears
As it floods every portion of my mind
The wind blowing into the trees, calm and welcoming
Reminds me of the way your hair does the same
These emotions that linger on and on
They make it seem like I can’t go on
I’m fighting myself from within,
Trying to break this confusion
I’m hiding myself with lies and laughter
Hoping not to lead myself to the slaughter
It is you I want and you I cannot get
Why didn’t I see this coming?
Why am I always such the fool?
I know there is nothing I can do
To change the way you feel towards me
I’m a freak and I know it
But why hide the fact at the beginning?
Why did you have to lead me on?
And bring me threw such a cloud of lies?
Why couldn’t it just be honest and true?
There is nothing more to be said,
But plenty more to be done
You will always be in my heart and mind
Even though you will not be by my side
My feelings might never change for you
And I know that part is so true

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Passion
By Derrick M. Cuomo

I sit here in a quiet room,
Pondering on what is coming soon
I pay attention to this
And then I will pay attention to that
But I still feel like I am lost
There is so much I can say,
So much I can do.
I don’t think I’m lazy,
My passion is just not here
Today just hasn’t seemed real.
My dreams… overwhelming
My life… different
I can’t seem to understand
Why my passion is not here
It is lost, lost within my heart.
So much awaits me,
But do I dare take the first step?
Mt vision is getting cloudy,
Do I still press on?
I can see a light just ahead
Is it somewhere safe I can tread?
I feel it now, my passion is near
No time to think, stumble, or fear
My hope shall guide the way
And a new passion I will feel every day
I shall stay strong,
From the dark of dusk until the light of dawn

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Should I?
By Derrick M. Cuomo

As I sit here and think
Millions of thoughts come to my head.
They tell me what to say
What to think and do
At least they try to
The only real way for me to speak
To speak using my heart…

Tiny arguments sprout throughout my head
Telling me how to react to you and the things you do
I come to a wall,
Do I follow my head, sheltering myself from love?
Making me feel safe as in a temporary oasis?
Or will I listen to my heart, opening myself?
Giving me a feeling of want, ridding me of loneliness?

Should I take that chance?
Should I show my true self so?
Will I soar on the wings of love?
Or hide in a corner, cowering in fear?

Time is ticking…
The time for this decision is coming near.
Will I face it? Conquer it? Obliterate it?
My heart says it holds the answers…
"Love will conquer all"
Should I risk everything?
Should a friendship end?
Or should I make it all seem fake?

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The Kiss

It haunts my dreams, my every thought
A kiss as sweet as honey
Yet, as deadly as poison
A kiss to fulfill a wish
Yet, to break a heart
A kiss to show they care
Yet, to show they don’t care enough
A kiss to awaken a once lost hope
Yet, awakens a well known pain
A kiss to show the truth
Yet, the truth is the end
A double-edge sword this kiss is,
It haunts my dreams, my every thought

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The Path
By Derrick M. Cuomo

Walking down a long path
A youth falls to his knees
The heat beating down upon his back
Sweat pouring down his face

Alone, he is alone
Lying on the path,
Gasping for air
Trying to stay awake

Fatigue consumes his body
Consciousness begins to slip
His vision begins to blur
His mouth becomes dry

A young youth lying in the path
He is alone, lying flat on his face
No energy rushing through his body
No life force, no will

A gentle figure walks down the path
He looks down upon the body
He falls to his knees
He strokes the face of the youth

Three days of searching
Three days of worry
Three days to find the one he loves the most
Three days to find his very heart and soul

He gently puts the youth on his back
He walks down the long path
He falls to his knees
But he gets back up

He continues along the path
Fatigue starts to hit
But the love flows through his body
A love to make him feel whole




The journey continues
Vultures all around
The gentle figure holds the youth
Held so gently as if a part of him

The end is near,
He will not give up
The end is near,
His love goes on

The sun has set,
He can still feel hope
The sun has set,
He can see the end

He makes it home,
Holding the youth
He falls to his knees
He lies the youth in bed

Crawling on the floor,
He tries to reach the bed
Fatigue takes control
And his eyes close

Life continues going on,
The sun has risen
Both are alive
The sun has risen

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What?
By Derrick M. Cuomo

Millions of thoughts go threw my head
As I start to prepare for bed
A new decision everyday
Which is the right way?

What makes you love?
What makes your heart fly like a dove?
What makes you feel so free?
But the next day stings like a bee?

What makes my heart race,
Whenever I see your smiling face?
This feeling is so new,
Is it really true?

What gives me these crazy dreams?
The ones that rip you up at the seams
The beauty of your smile,
It keeps me happy for a while

What can I honestly say?
What will take my pain away?
What will give me the happiness I see you feel?
The type that seems so, so surreal

Your eyes show a gleam of confidence
The opposite of my stupid hesitance
What makes you so strong?
What lets you sing a happy song?

What guides you,
In everything you do?
What makes you better than me?
What makes me want to flee?

There is so much I want to say,
But it must wait until another day
My hesitance rips me apart
Starting right with my heart




I stare at the ceiling,
Watching the fan spinning
What is in store for me
Do I really want to see?

Will I stand strong?
Will I sing a happy song?
Will I know what to do?
Will I know what is true?

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"Who Am I?"

Here I am again.
Just like way back when.
My life has seemed to halt
And I am the one at fault

New friend every day
But they don’t care either way
Who really cares about me?
Those people I really can’t see

I get lost in these petty feelings
Just lying down staring at ceilings
Who Am I?
I just nod my head and sigh

A state of confusion that I can’t comprehend
Is there at least one really good friend?
No matter what happens, I listen to everyone,
Yet when it comes to me, they prefer good old fun

How can they not see,
That certain problems affect me.
This river of friendship seems to run aground
Or is it that it has just yet not been found?

I lie under a tree and stare at the clouds
Trying to avoid the pain-bringing crowds
The bugs fly by and the wind is nice
I guess for now, this shall have to suffice

Who am I? The question lingers in my mind
And yet, no matter how hard I try the answer I can’t find.
Why are my thoughts so clouded when it comes to me,
Should this be the way things ought to be?

One day the answer will appear
And I shall not shed a single tear.
The ones who really care
Will finally take the time to share

Soon, very soon,
I shall look at the moon
I shall love those who love me
And that is how it should be.

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You
By Derrick M. Cuomo

Sitting alone in pain and misery
Feeling Cold, Shaken, and Alone
My mind wanders in and out
Wondering if there is anyone there
I see them all walking around
Happy, fulfilled and never alone
The I thought were there for me
Turned their backs and walked away
The feeling of hurt is so overwhelming
It seems like my heart is failing

I walk alone in the dark
Wondering why I am so alone
I see a light at the end of the street
It shines so bright I can barely see
I creep down there carefully
Wondering what it could be
I get to the light and I could barely speak
It was so amazing, spectacular, and wonderfully unique
The most amazing person I’ve ever seen
Just stood there and smiled at me

My Heart couldn’t comprehend
The feeling within the wind
It brushed against my face
And I wanted to feel your soft embrace
The words you spoke made me feel free
The words you spoke made me want to cry
Your love flows through my blood
My heart pumping it with my love

Your eyes comfort me
And you give me a reason to live
Your smile makes me reach for the sky
And you give me a reason to feel
Your love fulfills me
And makes me feel whole
Everything about you gives me shivers
And my love for you will not wither
Everything about you makes me smile
And my love for you will not falter
Everything about you makes me love
And no matter what I am yours

I couldn’t live without you now
If you’re gone I would be lost
I cant fathom being without you
You’re my all in all and everything
I will never leave you and never hurt you
Thinking about you makes me speechless
I love you now and forever always
My love for you is everlasting
You saved me from the shadows
And I love you now and forever more